sunday 23 sept 2007 12am

i really shouldnt be blogging now but i really got to jot down my feelings now down first.

in between rick n patson, which one ?

me n rick got hug n soft pet n he stole a peck on my lips once b4.

me n patson only shared a tea egg n my hand put on his hand b4 while walking for a short distance coz very crowded =b

this few days patson has been with me. he lets me feel like a very simple life. not really good food, good stuffs, a guy pampering me. its really a simple life. though like that, but coz he doesnt know abt me past, i like it like that.

for rick, he knows im a pampered n overspoilt girl all the while but he also knows that he cant pamper me so much too. he doesnt pamper or spoil me but he drives a bmw. n i know he can afford me good things coz he always supports my shots too. he looks much more decent but he has no time for me. if not for patson with me this few days, just relying on rick only, i can ornot?

just now went out with patson again. now is 12.11am. later got to wake up at 6.45am. still got to wait for rick till 1. or should i wait ornot. sigh.. meet liao then we'll surely pet again.. im in a lost..
argh!!!

i duno what step to move now. i know leading 2 on is wrong. but i duno which is the right one too........ i really hope to really start with one happily, but either one seems not good enough. both then just right liek that hahaha! =x see how things go.. wil update soon..

just as i published this post i sms him im tired. coz i really am. still got to study abit u know. tmr is role play test. n play my new electronic game hahaha.. byebye!