why cant i not keep my thoughts and feelings to myself..
sometimes i say things out coz i hope they know how i feel n things will get better.
but seems that most of the time its not like that lei.

for now, 25 march sunday
sean is the one taking care of me. buying me dinner. the one at my house..
the one i dun wanna be so close to le..
the one i dun care of my appearance or actions coz i dun like him as much.

wesley is the one i really like. the one im trying to please.
the one i cnt be myself when im with him coz i try to please him. i darent let him see the real me.
he's the one that lets me wanna be close to him but sometimes feel he's over horny.
coz i care abt him. i fear he will be horny to other girls too.

after writing out. 1 side of me feel im having a very equalized love.
but also that i should treat sean better.

for not giving them the real status.
it means i aint really betraying them right?
haiz..